Ally Cat

giphy toSo… here we are talking about ourselves and I don’t know where on the list of all my issues I should start! Wish me luck! It’s more like I have a long list of problems with myself that others think are fine, but I’m not 100% sure you want to hear about the dull musing of most of my self-hatred. But here we go anyway…

My past is where we will start…13191-Dont-Judge-Me-By-My-Past

Well, I was born and raised in London, specifically the Ealing area, I am a mix of British (my mum’s side) and Mauritian (my dad’s side). Life was interesting growing up, I lived with my mum and dad along with my older brother. Life was pretty much normal for me and I don’t remember much of my childhood… most probably repressed most of the memories and some that I remember are stories I am not 100% sure I really want to share cause they don’t just include me and may paint people in a bad light. But, what you should know is that I had a pretty great childhood… from what I remember. Daddy’s Little Girl, and loved by my parents and irritated the hell out of my brother!

E1IWGrowing up at home like any child I was subject to criticism sometimes it was harsher than usual and like every child, it messed with my head. Some of these issues I still carry with me, but I am trying to work through them… let’s face it I am running as hard and fast as I can away from them. Yes, some of these things I have learned from but also some of them I just don’t know how or what to do with it, so I just run!

But one thing is true…

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afab44f2a4848d836c41c6a9161f7219-present-quotes-moment-quotesLet’s have a little looky at my present…

My present is good I am recreating connections that I have lost with my family because I had been stuck in my past and constantly worried and anxious for the future… which I am 100% honest didn’t allow me to live in the present and let me distance myself from my family and quite a lot of my friends. But, I did notice one thing and that was those who wanted to be a part of your life fought to be there and reminded you that even if you feel alone they are there to listen to your problems and are there to pick up the pieces you can’t seem to hold or have lost. It’s good to know who will be there for you in your darkest times and who will be quick to snap back and cause more problems!

tumblr_mp89xcNxkI1rp0vkjo1_400I am a uni student who pays way too much money for a damn education! But, at uni I have met some amazing people who make me smile and bring me joy… I attend classes most of the time. I still find time to do the things I love like; this blog, reading, cooking, photography, drawing, and writing! I’m working on projects that bring me joy and bring me to hope that my future won’t be so bleak! I find at least one thing I am thankful for each day and it helps me to remember that there is so much good in this world that even if there is doom and gloom there is always hope that something good will happen (Damn guys I have been hanging out with Jay for a bit too long!!! 😂😂).

Well…

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… For now anyway!